her *colourful thoughts

went to catch a movie with shanning,
finally i watched x-men 3,
its kinda nice, not bad.
it was so cold inside the cinema,
as me and ning caught the first slot of the movie time.

thomas gave me a call and ask me whether wann to work not,
giving out flyers at jurong east there, pay not bad.
but i still got lessons on,
and i'm so lazy to travel,
its convinent for him as he stays near there.
i would consider de thomas.
anyway, thanks for the offer. :)

was walking home after movie,
and it just rain finish,
was msging hunnie on the way,
and guess what,
i bump into him when i'm walking home.
but he seems to be avoiding me,
did not talk much, and we went our individual ways.
i was like so down la.

and i reach my house doorstep and i saw a bouquet of roses at my gate.
i was so surprise, seriously.
and i start to thiink bout lots of things.
the roses are from hunnie and cause today is our 4th month anniversary.
i feel so gulity as i have neglected him for the past few days,
i'm just too busy with my own stuff.

i msg him to say thank you and he asked me a question,

hunnie: do you still need me.?
me: yes.
hunnie: cherish me before there no more chance.
me: what you mean.?

no more reply from him till now,
i'm worried.
i still care bout him.
i know i did a big mistake,
i can't possibly do that.
i'm lost.

i'm really sorry for what i did,
but what you says scare me out.
i just don't know what you are thinking,
what you mean by no more chance.?
imagination is running wild in my head,
can you just tell me what's wrong baby.?
i love you,
and i don't wish to leave you or lettin you to leave me.
no way.
i wann to be there for you like no one else had before.
all the fun memories we had, i wann more.
i don't wann an ending to our story,
a story that belong to you and me only,
if there got to be an ending,
i choose to let it be an happy ending.

i have seriously realise my mistake,
i would do my part,
but now you are leaving me alone,
i should have heed my friends advice.
i'm sorry and like what the roses from you to me,
i wanna say i love you too.
please don't leave me standing alone,
but come back and stand beside me.
i really neeed you.

i'm depressed right now.
i just don't know what to do.
i'm at fault..
am i to let it go or stay hold of it,
even though i'm like the last one holding on to this relationship.
i don't wish to hear the words.

i don't cry anymore as my tears has lost its taste,
but deep down in my heart, wounds are starting to form,
the scar that i once had,
is getting infected again.
the scar would stays forever,
for sure.

i'm wrong or correct,
i still will say, baby, i love you.

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