saturday:
had tution in the morning fer 3 hours and after my tution, actually planned to slack at home,
so i sms jiali whether she wanns to meet up fer dinner, she agreed.
but the very next moment, she call me up and asked me to head down to town with her, yan yin and javian.( did i spell correctly.?) xD
i was kind of reluctant to go down, but went down anyway.
then met hailing at cine the pastamania.
i think she still pissed off with me.
hais.
so i was quiet all the while or just talkiin to jiali friend, javian, who is a joker.
but nice to meet him.
went to find ming er at taka shoes department, and she was like,
"who are you.?"
my hair is different i know. (:
chat abit and i went off.
it was quite a nice day out with them.
but inside my heart, somethiin is still bothering me.
i don't wish to lose this friendship, i would rather keep it than lose it.
its a 4 year plus friendship that we three had built up together.
friendship is a thing that each party have to give in and take in.
that's makes a friendship last.
a friendship is mutual understanding between each other,
understand each and others difficulties.
friendship could bring happy and sorrow to both party.
i don't wish to give all this up,
i'm not tryiin to sound great or acting pitiful.
its from my bottom of my heart for everythin i have said or going to says.
i don't wish to lose this friendship as i treasure it.
i don't wannt to admit its all my faults as both party is at fault too,
unless you have not realise it.
i'm tryiing to run away from reality.
running away from the problems.
hiding all my sadness and sorrow in my heart.
living in all the sweet memories we three once have.
only showing the happy side of me.
memories that we three have are great.
if things really have to come to an end,
i would still choose to keep the memories.
but i just hope the day will not come.
have you put yourself in my shoes.?
have you think of me havin some difficilties.?
or i just don't exist in your friendship list.?
have you ever be bias to me than the others.?
i have so many questions running in my head,
that i don't know when it would all be answered by you.
i will not ever says good bye to you,
as a good bye marks the end to this friendship.
i would not leave you in the lurch,
i will pull you up as friends might make you fall, but they would always
be there to pull you up. that's me.
if the day really come,
the day that i feared of,
when the three of us are just like stranger,
and bumped into each other on the street,
will we ever says a "hello" to each other.?
i will.
colourful thoughts -
