her *colourful thoughts

lotsa thingy happened last night.
i blurt everythiin out online,
got the reactionn that i have expected in the 1st place.
constance my dear friend ask me blurt everythiin out and i DID IT!!
hahas.
can't believe i did it too myself.

did not attend skool today,
hahas.
its like i one day go skool, next day absent
but i went ta accompany hailing to go libary study.
woke up at 9, washed up and got changed,
then delay and delay,
around 10 then leave my house to take a 10 mins walk to the AMK libary.
and all the table its already occupyy.
the libary is open at 10 and i reach just 10 mins late. xD
so sat down and waited for liing to reach,
then we proceed to the cafe to study and eat.
sat at the same place for 5 or 6 hours, i think.
till 5plus then i ta pao diinner back home.
mock exam start on 10/10 till 14/10 and we are officially off for our own self study at home.
its like 2 more weeks.
gotta endure man!
tmr maybe meeting up with chris jie jie fer some shoppiin of cosmectics stuff bahx.
then at night meet up with liing and maybe lili for study session

i took the courage to tell ya,
but what i got was rejection. you did not even utter a word of "sorry" to me. did you.?
i wonder at times whether am i jus way too stupid,
as i was hurt once but i took the courage to love someone agaiin yet got hurt agaiin.
after the last message tat end with "i don't disturb you."
i start to give up on love,
i can't believe in love agaiin as i would get hurt once agaiin,
which i hate!
maybe what others say is right,
lucky this has not started, so it would be easier fer me to give up.
all the excuses of what u is a good guy but not a good boyfriend,
its just appear to be some sort of rubbish excuses you gave me,
but when i think it thru, maybe you are right..?
no one's knoe as we have not started.
maybe tat's all i wanna say to you, is TAKE CARE!

i'm learning how to get over this,
learning to forget
and get on with life,
do well fer myself
so that i would not be the one regretting when everythiiin ends.

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