her *colourful thoughts

its 2.49 a.m. in the morning on friday.
finally i just completed my english articles,
all the typing really strain my eyes and drain out all my energy.
feeling so sleepy right now.
ms teo ask me to redo the article as someone did the same article as me.
sadded la. :(

hours, hours back,
met up with my jie meis, yee choon and regina for dinner,
bump into jasmine and then chiali.
had a small chat with them.

then mummie called and nagged again,
she's being so unreasonable lohx,
i only went out yesterday,
and the past two days,
i was stuck at home doing my SCHOOL WORK.
and she complains that i did not study,
when i study, she never see.
so fed up of explaining to her,
later say i argue with her, while i'm just trying to explain everything to her nicely,
sort things out and clear my "NAME"..

not going to go anywhere tomorrow,
actually suppose to meet my colleagues out, but thinking,
i got to complete all my work ranging from tution to school.
argh.
and i asked chiali or wilfred to help me in my maths on weekend,
as if i'm not wrong,
there's a maths mock test on monday,
been doing english and other subjects,
never touch maths at all,
its time for me to start on it,
before my brains rust again.

when school starts,
i gotta fully concentrate on studies,
and get on the track.

i need to score well.
and one thing mummie say today when she nag,
"you think retain one year, very nice huh.?"
argh...
i know it not nice lohx,
i'm the one retaining, not you guys,
you all would not know how i feel de,
when the teachers pin-point you as repeat pupils.
that feeling hurts luhs.
when i'm not in the wrong,
you keep saying i'm in the wrong,
that feeling hurts too luhs.

i feeling like crying now,
having a good cry after so much things happen,
its like no one understand me,
friends or family,
no one does, i think.
quite depressed now,
but i need to be strong,
can i.?

daddy,
are you looking at me from heaven?
at this point of time, i miss you so much.
how i wish you was here to reassure me that everything would be all right,
with your great big bear hugs..
thinking back, in the past,
you've never cane me before,
and when mummie wanna cane me,
you would always talk to her first, calm her down,
can you now have a talk with mummie.?
so things would be better.
how i wish you are here to see me thru my teens years, till i get married and have kids.
i wish..
i really miss you alot luhs daddy.
iloveyou.

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