things is not getting on well for me.
mummie's nagging, problems between me and hunnie and my MYE results which is disappointing.
went for movie, POSIEDON with hunnie at lido,
the seats are cramp man,
and the kid sitting infront of me keeps moving the chair,
making it uncomfortable.
but the show is nice, u would be engrossed in it.
next movies up would be davinci and mi3.
saw hunnie friend also and he watch the same show, same timing and same place as us.
hahas.
then i went to get my hair accessories,
shop around.
then things start to get bad.
mummie call and nag me, and say what i've been going out.
but in the actual fact, i have not k.?
this really pissed me off.
mummie keep saying i've bo xin to study,
but when i did study, did you know.?
i'm still trying to convince myself that i'm doing my o's again.
no one would understand, how i feel.
i also wann to do well, who don't.?
i don't wish to disappoint anyone again,
my family have been giving me support,
but mummie is throwing me wet blanket.
everythiing is out of place now.
my MYE is badly done, and i feel sorry.
i don't know how to face my family.
though its just mid-year but..___.
i'm lost at words.
its been so long mummie gave me a hug.
i always meet you in my dream,
you are always there to give me a big hug,
reassuring me that everything's would be all right.
but its just a blink of time, and i'm back to reality.
its been so long from that day you leave us,
but things seem to happen just yesterday.
when i get to shout out "PAPA",
and you would sure answer me back.
but now.?
no matter how loud i shout, you would not be back.
i miss you soo much!!
can you know that from heaven.?
are you looking down at me.?
i've been a disappointment to you,
i'm sorry as you wants me to study hard as that's your last wish of me.
but i'm going to fulfilled your wish this year.
daddy, please bless me.
imissyou-
then hunnie and me also don't know for what reasons,
cold-war.
and i just feeling like crying,
but i hold back my tears.
i don't wish to just break down in front of heeren there and start wailing.
an ugly action i can say.
you promise before,
but things did not turn out that way.
you don't understand me at all.
you just don't.
i'm starting to lose faith in everything.
studies, relationship.
i hold back my tears as i wann to prove to others that i'm strong.
i just need simple talks and simple concern.
that's all i request from you,
issit so difficult to fulfilled it.?
please don't break the promise and trust that i gave you once and again.
back to mugging.
and thanks hailing for your advice. (:
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